End of the Cycle

十一月十五日 星期六 阴

虽然已经猜到结果会是甚么,我也以为我已经准备好了. 但真正接到验血报告时,心情不免还是会难过. 没有原因, 就是这样. Embryos' quality is good, range from grade 4-5 and lining thickness was 12mm. 下一步应该会尝试FET,最早也要在农历新年过后了. 我知道这是我的报应,因为我不够爱小孩,所以上天是不会让我轻易得到他的.

11dp3dt

My OHSS symptom suddenly disappeared yesterday. My appetite is back. I am happy that I am almost back to my normal life. But then, does it also mean that I have lost all my littles one? That's what I heard, it gets worse with pregnancy, and disappears if you're not pregnant.

8dp3dt

因为有些担心,所以我昨天回去clinic一趟. 还好我的OHSS只是mild而已,需要持续吃高蛋白质的食物. 同时也会暂停Pregnyl injection因为这会加重我的OHSS. 我想这回应该是凶多吉少了吧. DH也觉得就当是给钱拿个经验好了.

6dp3dt

就最近这两天我的肚子又出事了. 我从来没像今天这么担心打针过,这些针会增加我的Hormon level吧! 也就意味着我的肚子还会更加涨吗? 它已经好像接近爆炸的边沿了. 昨天半夜两点多很不舒服的醒过来,好后悔晚餐吃的那包炒伊面. 我对自己说我不会再乱吃了. 后来打电话去clinic,因为我有点不想持续打那些针了,结果护士只是很冷淡的表示,这是正常的. 那我还能怎么样? 早餐乖乖喝Ensure+2 egg whites,午餐也不敢乱来,只吃了个香肠面包,我也冲了姜水喝. 希望今晚可以安眠.

5dp3dt

我今天很不规矩,没冲Ensure喝,还吃了很多超咸的酸梅. 早餐狼吞虎咽的吃了一包干捞快熟面加蛋,午餐还很得意的在网上搜寻有那些Delivery. 结果因为只有我一个人吃,只能order Mcdonal,其它都太大份了. 没想到不下20分钟就送来了, 急促的從床上跳起来跑出去开门. 每天11AM-1PM是我insertion后躺着休息的时候,通常也会不知觉的小睡一会. 我竟然完全忘了我的小不点,冲上冲下的,到底小不点们还在不在呢? 然后我又像饿鬼般把grilled chicken folderover + fries + milo ice扫个清光. 没两下子我的报应来了,我的肚子又开始紧绷了起来,硬梆梆的,像打满了风的轮胎. 我多希望自己可以像卡通般用针在肚皮上刺个小洞,让风漏出来. 好辛苦,明明很饿,可是却只能吃一点,又控制不了自己的食欲. 唉..

4dp3dt

I have no appetite at all since I got up this morning. I don't know what happen to my stomach, I always feel full all the time. Eating strawberry is also too feeling for me, even 1 cup of water. I decided to cook multigrain porridge + mushroom for myself. The other dishes I had were not healthy except the fried egg with olive oil. But I like it so much and this was the 1st meal that I enjoyed so much after my ET.

They dun look delicious. But they are my favourite.

3dp3dt

I woke up very early this morning. But had breakfast only at 9 something. Felt like eating instant noodle so much. I have decided to stop eating instant noodle ever since I decided to start IVF which is nearly 2 months already. Dr advised not to take too much of processed food. But this morning I just couldn't help. So I cooked 1 packet of instant noodle+egg.

10:00 AM Went to the opposite clinic for my Proluton Depot injection. It cost me SGD15. Then tapao my lunch, corn + carrot + pork rip soup and rice.

11:00AM As usual, I was asleep after my Cyclogest insertion during the 2 hour bed rest. Yesterday I have gotten my sms ready to enter the Smitten magazine contest. The 1st 100 sms that reached them at 1pm would win a SGD1900 Toshiba laptop. Too bad, it was already 1:30pm when I woke up. Aiyo..

Tonight my dinner would be koey teow + bee hoon goreng. It is going to be spicy again.

2dp3dt

开始放假一个人呆在家里. 早上醒来喝了一大杯水加点蜜糖,马上有要上厕所的感觉. 我已经有几天没办法上了,好开心,肚子也好像有些扁了,毒素都排得七七八八了吧.

今天我除了要自己去买午餐外,还要问问附近的药房,可否帮我打针. 有些闷,因为DH不让我用电脑,要知道我可是Internet addicted,这让我2WW的日子有些难挨. 觉得自己像个病人,一些小动作都好像会对腹部造成压力,不知如何是好.

早餐: Ensure + 2 egg whites
午餐: 楼下的杂饭,为了要吃得健康些才要了青菜,没想到会那么难吃.
晚餐: Bee Hoon Goreng很好吃,只是很辣,超爱吃辣,可是有必要减少吃辣吗?
零食: Brazil nuts, pumpkin seeds, Honey and Soya bean drink

ET

十一月一日 星期六 晴

9:45AM 我还是比预约早到一个小时. 医生因为有些紧急手术所以迟来.

11:15AM 终于见到医生了. I have 27 eggs retrived, 16 of them are fertilized, 3 poor quality embryos are discarded, 10 embryos are frozen. Dr recommended me to have 3 embryos transfer and these 3 are the best among all of them. However, I couldn't start the ET immediately. Dr asked me to take 1 1/2 glass of water and wait.

1:45PM I was already in the operating theater and the nurse has done the second US. I still need to hold my pee and wait.

2:45PM Another US, I could see from the screen that, it was clear now. The nurse informed the Dr and started the cleaning process and tied both my legs. I guess this is how people give birth bah.

3:00PM Finally, the Dr arrived. Dr asked me to relax otherwise it would be difficult for the embryos to stick to my lining. The whole process was quite fast. I could see my embryos on the screen. However, at that moment my concern was when I could pee. I don't think I could hold for another 1 hour inside there. Luckily the Dr got the nurse to help me. That was the 1st time I pee without going to the toilet. The nurse inserted a tube in me and walah my pee was gone in an instant. I have not forgetten to ask about my lining's thickness, according to the Dr it was about 12mm during the last scan.

4:30PM Leaving the Clinic. Everyone wishes me Good luck. They are getting ready to leave too. The clinic is supposed to close at 3pm.

Total cost for today is RM1300(ET) + RM2500(ICSI) + RM1035(Medicine)

Continue the insertions AM and PM daily

DH will help me to inject Pregnyl(2000iu=0.4ml) on 4th,7th & 10th Nov


I will look for a clinic nearby to help me on this injection

ER

十月二十九日 星期三 晴

好恐怖的ER. 对我来说,目前最辛苦的是ER. 好痛啊!可能是我的卵泡太多了.
27/10 7:30AM - Lucrin(0.04iu)
27/10 10:00PM - Ovidrel(250mg)
28/10 11:00PM - 吃两粒黄色的药丸,隔天六点钟就起身,总共上了五次厕所,肚子够空了吧.
8:10AM 提早到达,原本的预约是九点.
8:30AM 护士小姐帮我量温度和血压,然后付RM4900.
9:00AM DH交货,我换好衣服在房间里等.

10:30AM 等了好久,终于护士小姐来了,她要我把身上的饰物和手表都脱掉. Embryologist是一个中年华人,他帮我插管,并告诉我会痛,果然很痛. 闭上眼,然后就没有知觉了. 我不知道隔了多久才醒过来,刚醒来时头像要撕裂般,下腹部很痛很痛. 吊了一包的盐水和两包albumin,albumin是为了预防OHSS. 感觉超饿,已经禁食也没喝水超过12个小时了.

1:30PM 下床走回房,再吊一包的盐水,然后吃些饼干和Milo,好饿,还好我有买了BreadTalk. 我是个瞒急性的人,要我躺在床上无所事事真的很难,Ipod又在抽屉里,幸好后来护士小姐把DH叫进来.下腹部还是很痛很痛,止痛药好像没甚么效力. 一共取得27颗卵子,卵泡的直径是18MM以上.

常常在网上游览各论坛,都没有听说ER原来这么痛. 站也不是,坐也不是,连躺下也感觉得到抽痛. 天啊,这辈子最痛就这天了. 还好隔天醒来,一切好像都过去了似的,除了肚子有点涨风外,现在的我还可以穿牛仔裤呢.这几天还需要Cyclogest 400mg Insertion,各在11AM和11PM,最好两个小时内不要走动. 总觉得塞得不够深,老是流出来,尤其是在公司11AM的那趟,有时要开会根本不可能坐上两个小时.

Total cost for today is RM4900(ER) + RM500(albumin) + RM75(Cyclogest)

最后一针Gonal f

今早打了Lucrin(0.04iu) and Gonal f(225iu). 终于这是最后一针Gonal f, 我希望自己不要再长新的卵泡,有点可怕,原有的卵泡快快长大就行了. 其实前晚半夜醒来就一直睡不好,很担心卵泡长不够大也担心卵泡长得太快. 所以昨天一见到医生就急问为甚么肚子那么不舒服. 医生原先还很满意我的数量,一听我那么一说就怀疑我的卵泡持续再长. 结果真的长多了14颗,医生表示他们懂得怎么处理,但我就得忍一忍这几天的不舒服. 快等不及ER了.

双倍的卵泡

十月二十五日 星期六 晴

Today is my 2nd US. My number of follicles has increased by double. I have a total of 28 follicles now. No wonder I have bloatedness. 2-3 of them have reached the size of more than 20mm. Most of them are at 13-15mm. Dr has to push my ER 1 day back for the mid-size follicles to grow for another day. My Gonal f injection will be reduced to 225iu. According to Dr, 14 is a good number, 28 is a bit too many. I hope the bloatedness will be gone after the ER.

Total cost for today is RM200.

This is going to be my last jab for this cycle b4 ET.

Went to MOF for lunch, I couldn't finish the tofu avocado salad with wasabi sauce. I feel so full b'cos of the bloatedness.

受罪了,我的肚皮

两天了得把裤子的扭扣打开,否则肚子真的好不舒服. 我想我暂时只好把牛仔裤和其他裤子摆一边好了. 不懂卵泡长多大了,肚子感觉好涨,完全不会觉得饿的那种. 每天还是固定的吃早餐,乳酪+牛奶+麦片+香蕉+蛋白,午餐外吃,晚餐喝Ensure+蛋白两只. 水果我吃草莓和葡萄,原本打算要天天吃粒苹果,买是买了但懒得削皮,所以还没吃. 不过我会停吃香蕉,听说不是很适合备孕,还有葡萄,糖份好像太高了点.

因为针打在肚子周围,左边的肚皮乌青,但右边的却还好,可能右边的脂肪比较多吧.

卵泡

十月二十一日 星期二 晴

Today went for my first scan after jabbing Gonal f. I have 7 follicles on each ovary, size ranges from 7mm-11mm. When the size of the leading follicles reaches 17 to 20 mm in average diameter and the estradiol hormone level is appropriately elevated, then it is time for the eggs to be "harvested".

Will be on Lucrin(0.04iu) and Gonal f(300iu) until this coming Saturday. Then the Dr will decide and confirm the dates for ER and ET.

护士小姐从用过的3支Gonal F pen抽取剩余的足以凑成两支笔,所以我只需再多两支笔就行了. 希望我的卵泡乖乖长大,让我可以顺利完成这个周期.

Total cost for today is RM1200 (Gonal f RM600x2)

Long Protocol

十月四日 星期六 晴
进度就像预期般,还算顺利. 我才知道有两种Protocol,我的是较长的那种. 第一阶段是23天的Lucrin,AF预测会在第10至14天的时侯报到. 然后第二阶段持续Lucrin(0.04iu)8天,第9天开始打Lucrin(0.04iu)和Gonal F(300iu),打了Gonal F的第5天需要再回去检验,医生会跟着身体的反应调整药的份量一直到ER. ET通常会在ER的3天后,2WW才算是第三阶段. 今天医生还是很满意我的状况,我希望他说这话时可是真心的.

下个星期二开始就得自己打针,有点担心会应付不来,因为下个星期瞒忙的. One more thing, I need to store the medicine in the fridge. It would be so great if I have the SK2 small fridge for the SK2 Mask. Then I can make full use of it now.

Total cost for today is RM3470. The RM3000 is for Gonal F(RM600 x 5).

这瓶小东西可不便宜喔

最贵的一支笔,montblanc除外

E2 Test

一直有点担心自己对Lucrin没反应. 昨晚还恶梦连连,吓坏了. 还好检验的结果,E2 level是<18.4,从hormon level的角度来看,我现在可是在更年期喔. 哈!!

Went to Raffles Hospital for the BT. I paid the bill by UOB credit card and I got additonal 10% discount. Didn't know credit card promotion is also applicable to Singapore Hospital :D

Total cost for today is SGD48.90

AF不来

这个月的AF竟然不准时报道,急死我了. 打了Lucrin,医生有说AF量会多,周期也会长些. 可是今天已经是第12天了,AF还没来,一开始就不太顺,唉..

后记: AF在第13天那天报道了, 26 Sept 2008

第一针

九月十三日 星期六 阴

從上个月AF的第一天算起的第21天,也就是今天,我开始了ivf cycle. 医生给了我时间表,如果一切顺利进行,整个过程会在十月底完成,然后就是所谓的2ww了. 医生很满意我的状况,他说我的身体已经准备好了,子宫内膜也正常. 抽血过后,护士帮我打了Lucrin针,瞒疼的. 这是会降低hormone level,阻止排卵. 估计这个月的AF会稍长几天.

看过一些论坛,有些人对Lucrin没反应,需要再加量,好恐怖. 果然是知道得越多越担心,我打算不要在搜查太多的资料,把一切都交给我现在的医生吧!

Total cost for Today is RM4000(Deposit) + RM470(Lucrin)